I only write on here when I'm upset

Its kinda wierd that I vent online. O well I guess. There is just too much drama in my life right now. This year has been very strange, more challenging than the last, and much less exciting. I thought living in the frat house this year would be awesome, and it is I guess. But it doesn't compare to meeting new people every day like i did last year in the dorms. I've lost touch of some old friends that I lived with last year, and I'm not sure why.

Further in distress my relationship with Claudia is going to shit. I don't know if we ever could have been a real couple. I don't think I ever wanted to try because I thought it would fail and I liked how we were. I really want to be friends with her, but she wants more than that. And thats not something I can do right now. I'm dating a girl named Jill who's a freshman this year. Shes a great girl... but still I feel like we aren't working. I want things to work between us, but the past week or so every time we hang out its not fun. And being with her isn't making me happy because shes always upset with me about something.

So, basically i miss last year, i'm sick of drama, and i need to be alone for a while to think about things.

Jane Says

This past week was hard for me to deal with. So much drama that I'm ready to be over. The weekend was a nice break for me. I was able to get away from the homework, frat, and finally able to get this relationship crap out of my head. I went up to indy with friends I haven't been with in too long. We taught some great kids how to swim at a pool in Indy and afterwards watched the IU game at a sports bar downtown. Lack of sleep aside it was a really good day, a break I needed.

music- Jane Says, Jane's Addiction
feelings- Its absulutely freezing out
moment of zen- beating frankenstien on expert, top that bitches

I Hope Tom Brady goes Home and Falls Asleep on his Cock-shaped Pillow

So I'm pretty much haveing an amazing day. I woke up and hung out the frat for a while this morning. Came back and did my homework. Then had the most ballin snowball fight outside teter for like 2 hours. We had like 80 people and two slingshots going. It was a blast. Watched the bears domination of the saints. Me and my friends ordered 150 wings from bww's. Took them forever to get here but THE COLTS FUCKING BEAT THE PATRIOTS IN THE PLAYOFFS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh that game was awesome. I'm so pumped for next weekend.

thoughts- I'm extaticly speechless
tunes- guitar hero

Boring has been break

Wait strike that, reverse it. OH I'm ready to be back at school. I remember why I was glad to leave Muncie. I'm ready for the stinky dorm room hallways and cheap alchohol. ready to walk to class in freezing weather, but I have a skarf now. So thats good.

I'm actually looking forward to little 5 training somewhat. Not looking forward to M118. Looking forward to tommorow and next week, should be more eventful.

thoughts: I need to drive somewhere
music: stupid boy- keith urban

What I've been up to.

No its not all of what your thinking. Well maybe I guess. I've been a little more diligent with my homework. My philosophy final will be cake. I think my Informatics one will be tuff but I'll study for that one. I need to write my first draft for my final English paper some time this weekend. That could be hard though with this wierd frat thing I have going on Saturday.

Which brings me to the frat stuff. I've been hella busy over at the house cleaning and putting up christmas decorations. Its not too bad though. Most of it I don't mind, and it keeps me off of guitar hero which has turned into and addiction. But I am playing my actual guitar more though. I've started working out again, hopefully that keeps up. I haven't been climbing all year. If I had my car down here I prolly would've went, but I don't. Break is looming of 3.5 weeks of boredom. Hopefully not, I'm gonna try to get a couple parties together. I still can't wait to be done with pledgeship...

thoughts- It doesn't feel like holiday season

tunes- Dr. Dre- Its like this and like that

These days

Well me and Jessica broke up. She did it. I've rarely ended relationships in my life. Most of the time I guess they just get stale and worn out. In this case I'm not sure what happened. I don't think she was really into it from the start. Or it didn't feel like it to me anyways. I don't know, and I don't really care to.

I don't know what it is about relationships that I like so much. I guess its the little things. Like holding hands and kissing. And sharing a bed with someone is great. Still I feel kind of relieved now that we aren't dating. I guess I saw it coming.

Well anyways, later on...

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